There's that time again

Wow. These last few days have seemed kind of crazy; ok, who am I kidding here? They might have been some of the craziest days of my life... and not necessarily in a good way.

It all started at the stroke of midnight on my birthday... ok. It wasn't that dramatic. It was more like 12:30 am or so. I'm not going to go into the messy details of it (for the sake of it remaining as personal as I can maintain it to be), but the end result was that me and my best friend put a "hold" on our friendship. Blows. I'm really upset about this. At first, I didn't try to understand his reasons; I just got sad, and then I got angry (and I know I wrote him a few harsh words that I didn't mean. I shouldn't be allowed by computers when I'm upset). But now, after thinking it over and talking it over with a couple close friends, I'm beginning to understand. At first I thought it was all over forever and it broke my heart to think that all that I had done to rebuild a relationship with him had gone to waste. All of that made us stronger though, and knowing how strong we are on the inside gives me comfort in knowing that no matter how far apart we are in presence or in words and no matter how hard the other tries to forget, our souls, our beings, our memories will tie us together. He will always be a friend, and when he is ready to return to that role no matter how many years in the future that may be.... I'll still be here.

I understand.