These Words Are Still Virgin

You know, I haven't posted in a few days. Mind you, I've been looking at what I've written in the past, and one would think that I should have expended that energy towards writing something new... but naw. Not that I haven't had anything to say -- oh shit, you should know what's going on inside my crazy head. Well, actually, you shouldn't -- that's why it's not here. Haha. I just haven't been able to write it all down. Most of my thoughts have been placed on scraps of newspaper as I'm sitting at work. I always wonder if I should destroy those pieces, but slowly they've been building up significant mass in a pocket of my backpack. I don't think I've found the best way to impregnate my words. I've been told that I have a tendancy to do that, although more-so in the style of spoken word rather than written (written with the annunciated "t") :-P.

kitten.

Today was a truly awesome day. This whole weekend was really. I went over to Chris and Justin's place today with Adarsh and Sirin for some superbowl action. Great time. Had a few beers. It was nice to have a drink again; it doesn't really happen much during the school year -- with "much" meaning "at all." Just the feel of a bottle in the hand. oof, that is nice. Don't give me none of that pussy-Shmirnoff Ice shit that the girls are always drinking. Just a straight-up servesa. There's just something about the mood surrounding a group of friends drinking for the company. You're not drinking to get drunk, just drinking for the taste, the feel, the whole shit. I can't wait until Tuesday when I can go hang out again. It really fortuante that this week is much more lax that any other this quarter, so what-the-hell, I might as well take it easy on myself. I just want to be around friends again. I should go for a night-drive sometime. Night-walks are fun still. I'll go on one tonight,

haha. I went to subway a few days ago, and they're giving out these game-cards with contest codes on them, but they also have these lame "new year resolutions" on them underneath the silver scratch-off stuff. I hadn't stratched mine off yet and I wanted to do so so I could write down how awfully stupid they are, but I won a bag of chips. haha. Godamnit. I didn't know it was a game! I thought it was just lame resolutions. Why can't things just go my way?! I lose by winning when I want to lose! This is ridiculous.

I'm reading again. I have to admit that Chris has gotten me into it. Although, I will give Eli some credit for lending his book. "The Book of Illusions" by Paul Auster is apparently "one of his favourite books... almost made him cry," so I thought it would be a good book to start me back into reading. I can't wait. I'm almost done with it, and it's readlly quite wonderful. I can't wait for "The Pastures of Heaven" though. There's something about Steinbeck that I like. I just love him. I was obsessed with him for about 6 month in highschool after we read "Grapes of Wrath."

Wow. It certainly is plesant to have a happy entry for once. My life seemed to really take a bit of a turn towards the flames in that last week. Not that I've gotten my thoughts organized anymore... but I'm definitely more relaxed.

It's hard being crazy.