Oh, Chem....

A bleak attempt was made to study for the last couple hours. Hopeless. I've just got too many other things besides organic chemistry that are much more pleasant and interesting to think about. And at least I don't feel all that nervous about it. I studied a ton yesterday and today, so I don't feel nervous. I'm just going to get up early tomorrow and review, but I didn't have any major issues with the material.

I just get so lost in fictitious conversations that I have in my mind. They're all with really people -- friends usually. I don't know how accurate I am in portraying the other person, but the conversations usually are pretty funny. Do other people do this? I love being around friends, and sometimes chemistry can get a little lonely. Oh god, I better not be turning into my brother -- constantly needing to be around people. Constantly needing to reaffirm the status of his relationships with people. I'm way more laid back than he is. Just let it go. Flow. What happens, happens; don't constantly make big deals out of every change because it's going to put you in a situation in which you lose what you had before.

I'm thinking about changing my screen-name. I've had my current one since... sophmore... maybe freshman year of high school? So long ago. I really don't fancy it anymore. It would definitely not take that much effort, because I have only about 10 people that I would ever talk to... ever.

I feel like going on top of Factor.

Maybe I'll take a go at it on Friday after work. Ugh. I'm so tired. A part of me wants to have fun, but the other... just sleep.

Earlier this evening I breathed out my nose, and it made the coolest sound. Like a "weeeeeehhhhhhhheeeeeetttttffffffiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIIII" and it made me laugh, and I got distracted by a reflection in the window, and I missed a stair I was going down. Tried to play it cool.

Let's go steal something. Man, I could day-dream forever.