Life is Good

It was my mom's birthday today. She had been in Pepperdine this last week to attend a course, and today was her last day. So convinient! We got to spend some time together. A REALLY good brunch at this french bakery in Westwood, and just a general spending-time-together theme. Adorable: with Marcin and I both going to UCLA now, I made her buy a piece of UCLA gear -- she looked so cute in her grey zip-up sweater. It was nice to see her again. It feels as thought I never see my parents anymore.... I don't like the space inbetween visits to be as long as they have been. It's not a whole "I miss them thing" -- wait, does that sound mean? I'm an independant person and don't really feel the need to always be around them; it's just that every time I see them... they just seem a little bit older. Especially my dad. I see it more in his eyes. My mom is always a bundle of cuteness and energy, but I still see a little bit of it in her once-in-a-while.

*sigh* I'm a little upset. I had to make a wise academic decision... damnit. Why do I always do that? Haha. Yeah. Not going to Topanga tomorrow. *sigh* that's ok. Fuck, I practiced hard though. Oh well... my number was 13... couldn't have been that lucky there anyways.

Stupid midterm.

I don't think it would have been such a big deal if I didn't want to work for my professor over the summer. I'm no longer an attractive undergraduate researcher after I fail the midterm/class.

Damnit.

It was a fun week; so many birthdays (2, really) and just a general good time starting on Friday. So I guess more of a fun week END. Justin's 20. Yay! I'm no longer dating a teenager! haha. jk. I didn't even notice. AAAEEeeeEEE! *sigh*

AHH! NO SMILING!

Last night, Eric had a BBQ. It was a good time. Things always get interesting. It seems like everyone's getting together/hooking up.... I don't know what's up. It's cute, and entertaining... and oh so disappointing when the blinds are shut and we're all standing at the outside window trying to look in.... :-)

You know who is reaaaalllly damn good? Sufjan Stevens. If you have not discovered him, discover him NOW. Wonderful. If you don't have any of his music, I will SEND you it.

I've been so happy lately. It's so great. Haha. It's interesting to look at past entries, and see how much my emotions have fluctuated. I was so down back then... it's so nice to feel happy again, and to really begin figuring out what I want to to with my life. I know my major, I know my minor... and though I'm not 100% of my career path, I know what I want to TRY to study after undergrad. There's two "realistic" (haha... I hate that word) things I'm looking into. 1.) Teaching. I love tutoring kids... though I know that I would want to work with older kids (HS or college... meaning either graduate studies in education, or getting a PHD, respectively... I would just need to see how far I want to take my education)... and 2.) *sigh* Art. I know I'm definetely going to send a portfolio to gradutate Art programs. I'm still drawing, and when I go back to SD, I paint again. I'll be bringing up my stuff to LA over the summer so I can paint more, and I'm going to learn Illustrator to the smallest detail.

Whoa. It was weird jsut now, because I suddenly had the feeling that I wasn't wearing any pants... which I'm not (wearing a skirt) but you get the idea.

I had talked to my dad about those options, and I was happy to see that he was supportive of all of them. he figured if I'm willing to put the amount of work necessary to get into a good art school, then I'm good enough/have the drive to succeed... and it shows that that's what I really want to do.

Happiness.

Wow. Could I ever be a successful artist without feeling like shit? I don't think I'm ever going to stop loving my life now.

But hell, we all have demons, and we all see those of others.

I'm going to be going to Vancouver and driving to Calgary. Sweet.

I want summer to come... but finals... oh finals.... stay away!