Inverse Reciprical

I'm tired of this. I feel like I'm dealing with the same thing over and over again. I'm investing so much and I feel like i'm just not getting anything back. *sigh* can't say that it hasn't happened before. Haha. It ALWAYS happened. Well, twice before, but that's good/bad enough.

I've been thinking about reciprocity recently. There are some things that you can never get another person to appreciate on the level that you do. Some of us have these immense passions towards something, and you could go on explaining, justifying it to another person... and they would never feel that, because those emotions come from within -- you can't force them.

It's like friendship. You could love, adore, and admire someone with all of your heart, but it's not ever going to make them feel the same way about you. I guess that's were my thought about reciprocity have been stemming from.

I cut off part of my thumb on wednesday (seriously, there is a chunk missing... it was bleeding pretty hard) and it hurts to poke it... but I keep poking it on purpose. I have no idea why.

Sorry about the sidetrack. I have a bit of a headache.

But anyways, poring your heart into something and wanting another to feel the same way? Worth it? I don't know. It sure as hell takes a lot of energy out of you.